My time at the Hideaway with MTI was amazing! Such a wonderful time and painful time and joyous time and peaceful time all at the same time. It is all a paradox of returning to the US and starting the new chapter of my life. It was refreshing to be with a group of people who were and are experiencing the same things and feelings and problems that I am. I was able to see how being sad and happy at the same time without having guilt of either place is possible and good. I have known this in my head, but last week it moved to my heart.
This morning at church we had communion and tears came to my eyes after I took the elements. They just were not “Polish” and the time felt so foreign to me. It was not as intimate as I have had for the past 7 years. I was grieving for the church family I have had, amongst the family that I now have. My good friend, Jen sat there hugging me, understanding me and comforting me. What a wonderful gift God has given me in this beautiful woman, sister, fellow returned missionary.
As I miss all of my dear ones in Poland, God has given me a dear group here who has loved me well, encouraged me and even challenged me. Just what I have needed.